Each night when I lay my head down on the pillow a million, maybe a zillion thoughts go running through my mind. Tonight, I ran down to get the computer because I felt some of the things would be good to share and that sharing would get me to sleep quicker than trying to muddle through them on my own. I know this seems like a lot for one week but I do believe that some of the things I have learned and realized are things that will stay with me forever...kind of like a growth spurt of the mind and maybe a bit of the heart.
Some things I have learned ....
1. My kids are awesome. I don't think I ever slowed down enough to realize how fun, compassionate, loving, caring, funny, and silly Brooke is. She says the funniest things and really thinks when she speaks. For every "tiny" naughty thing she is capable of (and sometimes follows throught with) there is wonderfully loving thing she does to replace it. Lucas, although only two months old seems to have such a mellow, calm, cool, funloving personality. He just chills out and watches everything around him. He will laugh when you are talking to someone on the phone...he just sits there with this HUGE grin on his face. Adorable!
2. Sometimes things that happen to you that aren't good or when "tough" situations arise you realize although they are tough and scary they are a blessing in disquise or this one problem solves another (even though it is a shitty problem). I've questioned everyday since I have had Lucas whether or not I want to stay home for till January. It has always been my option, my choice. Some things have come up that I might not have the freedom of that choice. To my own surprise when I found this out my first emotion was to becomem upset that I wouldn't be able to stay home with the kids. Whether or not I will be able to do this is to be foreseen but I am happy that I now know where I stand on the issue and I am going to TRY and not worry about how I will feel about this a week from now, or months.
3. Learn to be happy and only care about what is happening
right now.
4. First person you should always talk to when dealing with a problem is with whom the problem is with.
5. EVERYONE has there own issues, no one is perfect, and if someone is making it look like they don't have issues or that they are perfect...they're lying.
6. Last but not least...it sucks to jumprope your weight!
Yes some very serious, and some silly. But all things I have realized to be true this week