Very Busy

In thoughts, in decorating and spending time with the kids. It is a very difficult time right now because we are making the decision of whether I have to go back to work or not this February. My first answer would be to stay out the year but it may not work out that way. We had two unexpected things happent to us that may force me to go back sooner then later. This is very hard for me but I guess like I tell other people after the first two weeks of being back it won't be that bad. It is almost like don't taste it and you won't know what you are missing, is the better way. So many hard decisions will be coming up for me in the next few weeks that I can't even put my head around it. One being finding someone that encompasses everything I want in someone that will be taking care of my kids. Its alot and there are so many variables. I'll say it now and I'll say it till I die. The hardest job in the world by far is being a mom, especially being a working mom.